tonight my knees will be chewed into cobblestone streets

ascreamingcamel @ 2007-12-28T10:12:00

2007-12-28T15:15:31Z

i should have been a pair of claws scuttling across the sea.

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-12-08T13:44:00

2006-12-08T17:44:48Z

Because I am remarkably clumsy when it comes to technology and lj posts in particular, I am writing a prelude to the post below. The article re-typed in my last entry discusses a few other dimensions through which the fight for gay-marriage can be assessed. Though I am in disagreeance/confusion with a few of the points made, I do think the article sheds light on some interesting points of contention that deserve their place at the table in the discussion of human rights, specifically those related to the lgbtq community as these issues are becoming increasingly heated and prevalent. For me, it is hard to extricate my opinions from how the issues pertain to me personally as I am in close relation with several familes, friends, peers, and mentors that identify themselves as lgbtq and are currently proponents for gay marriage. I dont find myself opposed in any way to their struggles; however, I do believe that the context of the disscussion and the parameters of the argument ought to be widened drastically and immediately to include other minority groups commonly excluded. raising awareness of these issues is the first step. That being said, I retyped the article in my last lj post for anyone interested in educating themselves and learning more about how these issues affect our communities. Please forgive any typing errors as I was hurried in typing up what was a moderately lengthy article.

Also, a point for clarification that I recently became informed about:

* Transgender--

Transgender is an overarching term applied to a variety of individuals, behaviors, and groups involving tendencies that diverge from the normative gender role ( woman or man) commonly, but not always, assigned at birth, as well as the role traditionally held by society.

Transgender is the state of one's "gender indentity" (self-identification as male, female, both or neither) not matching one's "assigned gender" (identification by others as male or female based on physical/genetic sex). Transgender does not imply any specific form of sexual orientation (transgender people may be heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, pansexual, or asexual.)

* source material provided at www.wikipedia.org

I think it's important to realize that trans-gender does not necessarily imply identification with the opposite sex... sometimes the association is as broadly defined as cross-gender identification, while in other cases individuals may identify with more than one or no sex/gender at all. In fact, in my limited experience in a new, more open town, I have encountered several individuals that prefer the pronoun "they" when referenced in discussion. Just fyi to open minds in an effort to promote understanding, acceptance, and respect among people regardless of color, sex, income, gender, ethnicity, nationality, religion( and any other defining categories, the lists of which are seemingly infinite in our modern world of economic/social competition and marginalization)

See you all soon..... Stenciling and silk screening to commence shortly, if anyone would like to join in, please do not hesitate to ask!

P.S. I would like to see some discussion about this and other issues on livejournal..... I think the internet can be an effective agent when used to meet appropriate ends. Less petty fighting, more discussion and cooperation!

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-12-08T13:26:00

2006-12-08T17:26:36Z

Ban Marriage!

by Craig Willse as appears on Make Zine website: http://www.makezine.org/rants.html

    As a queer who personally does not wish to ever get married and who is politically opposed to state regulation of families and sexual relationships, Bush's current campaign puts me in something of an awkward position. How can I help organize to oppose his planned ammendment while also maintainig my own critique of and position on marriage?

    For me, that requires forming a queer politics that is not simply identity-based, but which is based rather on a broad commitment to social and economic justice issues. Such a commitment means a couple of things.   It means seeing queer politics as necessarily working in coalition with a wide set of contemporary struggles- against the occuptations in Iraq and Palestine, against police brutality and mass incarceration in the united states, for access to safe and affordable means of birth control including abortion, for living wages and universal healthcare. It also means challenging a gay political agenda that focuses on the needs of racially and economically privileged people at the expense of, for example, queers of color, poor queers, and immigrants.

    I recognize that people support marriage for a lot of different reasons and that people wish to get married for lots of reasons - including symbolic, emotional, and material reasons. I want to think about marriage at a systemic level, not at a level of individual experience and benefits. I realize this means talking in terms that don't always account for how wide the range of experiences might be, but that systemic focus is important and is more complex than a lot of media coverage of this issue suggests.

    I won't spend too much time going over the critique of marriage offered by feminists, queers and sex radicals, among others, but at the level of individuals we should remember everyone who is left out of the benefits of marriage- non-monogamous couples, people whose homes and families are not constituted out of sexual relationships, etc. Many perverts, polyamourous people, sex workers, s/m practitioners and activists have rejected the normative institution of marriage because of the violence it enacts on people who don't fit and don't want to.

    We only need to look at how the Lamda Legal Defense and Education Fund discusses marriage to see evidence of this:

       "Gay people are very much like everyone else. They grow up, fall in love, form families, and have children. They mow their lawns,
        shop for groceries and worry about making ends meet. They want good schools for their children and security for their families as a whole."

    Not to go on about the obvious, but who is this "everyone else"? What gays fit this model and what does it mean to suggest that all gay people are like this? What about people who don't own homes with lawns to mow? What about people who mow other people's lawns for their living? People with no money to buy groceries? People who don't wnat children?

    Similarly, while marriage has offered access to resources for some, advocates have pointed out how through welfare reform marriage operates as a coercive institution which punishes women whose families do not fit a family ideal. The money Bush wants to divert to "promoting" marriage is a burden that will be inordinately carried by poor women and women of color.

    We should also remember that queer and trans people do not only face oppression in terms of gender and sexuality, but along other lines as well. The ability to access some of ther very important material privileges of marriage would not be the same for all people.   Sor for example: A working class gay person who has a job without helath coverage will not be able to extend their nonexistent benefits to their new gay spouse. Gay people of color in prison will still lose custody rights to their children. Queer immigrants, particularly those whose sex lives do not fit the model of marriage ( for example, non-monogamous queers), will still be subjected to anti-immigrant violence, laws, and deportation. Trans parents will still have their children taken away by judges who think trans homes are inappropriate and unsafe.

    So, putting aside Bush's ban, and thinking about advocating for gay marriage, I want to ask if concerns like hospital vistiation rights, healthcare, and custody are best secured through marriage or if other political battles- universal healthcare for example- would be a more effective front. Because aside from the wide range of people who might seek out same sex marriages, I think that we will see that gay marriage will primarily benefit the same people that straight marriage benefits- those with property to protect and economic entitlements to share. This is not to say that other individuals will not seek gay marriage or benefit from it. But i'd sure argue that those benefits are secondary, and that systemically, the strengthening of things like inheritance laws (for example) is bad for low-income populations. When we say "I know there are problems with marriage, or I know gay marriage won't fix everything, but it's what we can do right now," I worry that we are justifying the gains of radically and economically privileged people at the costs of a broad spectrum of poor people, people of color, immigrants and their political struggles. As a white queer, I feel a responsibility to reject political gains that I can access through privilege. I also worry that if we decide that a battle like this is practical in the short term, and that today universal healthcare is impractical, wishful thinking and a battle that belongs to the future - well, if that day is always in the future, it will never come.

    A story that might help clarify what I'm thinking about:   A fews years ago, tow propositions came up for vote in California: Prop 21 and 22. Prop. 22 said something like, "In the state of California, only marriage between a man and a woman is legal." It was a preemptive stike following from talk in Hawaii, Vermont, etc. Prop. 21 was a "juvenile justice" bill tha lowered the age at which cihldren can be tried as adults, added time to prison sentences for youth affiliated with gangs, and redefined gangs in such a broad way that any youth of color just hanging out together could be defined as such. Many organizations in LA campaigned simultaneously against both propositions, recognizing links in these battles as being about social and economic justic. The Los Angeles Gay and Lesbian Center only campaigned against Prop. 22. The did nothing on Prop. 21. At the time I worked a shelter run by the Center. For the homeless youth living there, Prop. 21 would have immediate and disastrous consequences. Many of them had already in their short lives been targets of the criminal injustice system, and the conditions of poverty and racism meant they often worked in illegal economies for survival. Also, as visibly trans and queer youth, often of color, they were frequent targets of police harassment and violence; walking around hollywood carried the danger of an arrest for solicitation.

    When the center decided to do no work on Prop. 21, they decided that youth incarceration is not a gay issue. They effectively positioned the needs of the youth with whom i worked outside of gay politics. The Center's work was a crystallizing moment of defining who constitutes a legitimate glbtq community, and whose needs our organizations will represent.

    I think we can also look at another legal battle that's instructive- gay hate crime laws. When gay mainstream organizations fought for tougher hate-crime laws, what they in effect accomplished was a strengthening of a racist legal and police system that disproportionately targets poor people of color. People are not going to stop gay bashing because there are longer sentences for hate crimes; but people will spend more of their lives in jail because of these laws.

    It's important to recognize that it was mostly large national organizations (such as HRC), which we know are often primarily determined by white people, who fought for these laws. Many small community based groups of immigrant and queers of color, such as Audre Lord Project in Brooklyn, opposed this legislation.

    So part of my concern is: How do we determine what is a legitimate and supported lgbtq movement? And who gets left out of those movements? It is obviously imperative that we organize against Bush's marriage plans. I hope that we can find ways of doing so that allow for the diversity of political opinions about gay marriage. So we don't wind up arguing that to be anti-Bush we must be pro-marriage. I think this requires developing a politics that sees the importance of legal battles such as this one and also sees the costs of a liberal model of politics represented in this fight. Centering anti-racism, anti-capitalism, and feminism in queer politics means that all the issues addressed in other panels today- the patriot act, reproductive rights, unions- are queer issues. It also means being cognizant of the fact that current movements that advocate gay marriage may take place in a context in which institutions of white supremacy and capitalism play an enormous role in determining political agendas and controlling resources. What if everybody who right now was spending money buying flowers and sending them to San Francisco city hall, instead sent that money to local organizations that fight police brutality? A fight against police brutality is one that directly serves queer and trans people who are of color, are poor, or are homeless people; it directly serves the sex workers, immigrants, and youth within our communities.

    Queer and trans-gender movements that seek real liberation and freedom for everyone might turn out to be movements that dont look like what we call "gay rights" movements. Despite whatever benefits might accrue to some people, broad economic justice will not be served by re-enforcing the government's power to determine what families or sexual relationships are legitimate and hence deserve access to social and economic resources.

we imagined our beginning and so this can never end

2006-10-16T02:40:42Z

i will always remember:
the wolves in the rose garden,
the low-ceiling of that cave and the distant light,
pretending to be a small grey moth in the upper corner of the room,
pink leg-warmers,
light yellow-laced secrets,
contact lens rims and burning brown eyes,
four hands on a warm bowl of apple pie,
frosted windows,
searching your back for a forgotten verse,
a cup of water retrieved for a sore throat,
cold skin and buried feet,
patches of rainbow on a water-stained ceiling,
waking up at 4:44 when there was a train waiting to be caught miles away,
a voice from my left-startled suprise- and a thick embrace
when you called my name while others just screamed,
singing through city streets and bright lights
and the way your voice echoed,
the fact that "we have something figured out",
mud pie sliced like time,
the number 12 in gold on blue,
and how bad of an idea it is to wear a belt.
i thirst for each piece that you break off for me to hold.

when you are not, the roar of rivers is not lucid. The valleys are scribble.

2006-10-02T03:52:18Z

whooo, i really needed that weekend.
thanks for sharing everything from
brown rice to spider smells.
you thought in numbers alot,
"mayhap" because you are good at math(polynomials).
a fallen insect wing,
some shared tears, mysterious bruising
and failed attemps at sleep
will hopefully be enough in memory
for two weeks?
i feel way better about what is real.
thank you.

street art outside the library just hit the spot

2006-09-18T13:13:46Z

"i dont want to grow weary
alone
i want to grow weary
with you"

Thank you dan for the technical support ;)

2006-09-17T21:05:02Z

for the kids hangout @ skylight exchange in chapel hill

bros with the mom

stealing a sip from the water bin

home sweet home

this perch is so far, so far from the nest.

silver lining in a sketchy shot

my new "home"

streetlight on a grey day

flowers adorned with freshly fallen jewelry

for some reason these tree trunks remind me of dinosaur skin.

forest art!

i really like all the mosses and stones

a big silver, conspicuous cricket

yesterday was weird. i impulsively took a ride to the botanical gardens and a waterfowl impoundment(whatthefuck!) with a new friend and some dudes on lsd.

nasir was under the impression that a chrysler convertible could make it through the mud. he was wrong.

but alas we recovered the vehicle.

the walkway in the arboretum(not the strip mall)

some vines doing their thing

convex like an eyball

my new bike.

mushroom forest on your moss ridden brain.

a large tree fell and exposed a hollow pith.

everyone meet my roommate josh. hey josh!

later josh

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-09-03T18:25:00

2006-09-03T23:06:16Z

a little update on some interesting events that have been happening recently.

Really Really Free Market(A.K.A Mercado Libertario-

this is the name of the free-market i went to yesterday in carborro. there were lots of puppet shows performed by social activist groups from D.C. The premise of the really really free market is pretty self-explanatory. It uses carborro's town commons as a central spot for free trade. To elaborate on that statement a little, people make food, clothes or bring old cds, movies, books etc and everything is free... absolutely no charge. there was an abundance of zines being distributed, folk bands playing on and off, and various other performances. everyone who wants to take part can and anyone who can bring a share-skill is encouraged to do so. i got some neat stickers and zines, namely a zine on diy screen printing.

books for prisoners- this is a group that meets every sunday to distribute books to prisoners in the south east and deep south. they gather books through collection. prisoners send letters requesting books and this group does its best to fulfill those requests by sending out books to prisons. i want to type a letter that i kept with me from one of the prisoners:

"I want to personally thank you for sending the books; even though they were not in the catagory i asked for. i am reading Big Time T. Sloan. Now. It is entertainment, books have knolede(sp. knowledge) that is hidden withen the pages. It is up to the person to find it. This is my first time in prison and I have read over 200 books in the last 3 years. where i'm at in mississippi only 3 books a weeks to the newer the condition the better the chance of getting it through. only soft back. If by chance If you have a 2005 of 2006 Almanac I would love to read one I wish I had money to send to help you all but my family is still strugling from hurricane katrina everyone is ok :) If by chance you run across a book about getting inside music entertainman industry please save it for me. thanks and god bless. Jerell"

I loved my work today. I felt like i was actually doing something, even if very small, to better someone's life. I responded to this letter and sent a copy of the book "Light in August" by William Faulkner figuring that it might be interesting to read a novel that is set in this particular prisoner's location.

lastly, we also received a letter from an indigenous political prisoner in NC. His name is Eddie Hatcher; his story is that he got framed for murder. Eddie is a native of an Indian tribe, i unfortunately and regrettably forgot the name of the tribe, who spoke out and assemblied rallies promoting racial and social equality. Anyway, his letter and story in prison really hit hard. Here is a quote from his letter:

"For two years I lay sick on steel, unable to speak, shooting blood out of me. All the while they badgered me to death, harassing day in and day out."

he went on to talk about his intestines and bowel system failing due to malnutrition, not failing to mention how much he missed his young daughter who has not seen since 98.

i really hope this doesnt sound self-righteous as that is not my intention at all. i just want to share an experience with the hope that others may be inspired to start getting involved in the shaping of their respective communities.

- cameron

remember me, i'm coming back. who knows how long, but i'm as good as gone anyway.

2006-08-26T16:38:37Z

listening to rosa really makes me miss a beautiful time in my life.

after one week, college life has been really cool. I haven't done much other than read, walk around aimlessly for hours, study, go to class, and watch movies, but everything has been really interesting. I am getting a bike in abouth a month which will definitely aid me in my ability to get around and scope out all parts of this new town. My roommates are suprisingly cool. Both are very friendly and we get along great. We really lucked out with our room, too. It's pretty big and we have a futon so if anyone ever decided to pursue the unlikely whim of wanting to come up for a visit, there would totally be a comfortable place to stay. Favorite features of the last week: the wonderfully splendid plantlife on campus, old and historical architecture, interesting looking people, brit lit, art hist., and native american hist.

i miss home a little bit, but I miss friends and close relationships sorely. It's good to hear that everyone is having fun when I do get updates.

well, that's about all i can say after one week. it feels like i am just scratching the surface of what will likely be one of the largest parts of my coming into fruition.

everyone play instruments, be happy, be healthy, and have good fun!

love.

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-06-04T15:11:00

2006-06-04T20:12:35Z

June, 4 2006 at Maps and Atlases @ Lunchbox Records
1419A Central Ave, Charlotte , NC 28205
time 7 oclock

Maps and Atlases (amazing shit boa narrows new favouirte band)
look mexico ( good interesting indie rock from tallanasty fl)
boa narrow.

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-04-24T20:13:00

2006-04-25T01:32:16Z

Purblind as i am,
Standing in this yellowed metaphor,
Issuing pleas for meaning in staccato-like gasps of infinite uncertainty
Laughter leaks from every direction, undulates and licks the greasey lip of a handprint strangely pinned
On the breathing, moving facade of this all consuming hall. sonorous,
Catalytic digression from my ego's instinctive suppression and a
Yellow,limitless lack of silence
Blossoms to catch each thought that falls
In the ill-lit plurality that smothers mind and wall
Nocturnally, i've rolled all sense of self into the captive unity of one rolling ball.

take a step back; I am Me

2006-04-02T02:36:06Z

March 31 was a night to remember. i still havent really gone to sleep except for about 20 minutes or so today in a graveyard. it's too hard to describe the changes that have happened to me in the last 24 hour period because i dont think what i have experienced could be placed into words very accurately, but it is important that i mention the fact that i dont think the realizations that occurred can be pinned to one specific cause. for the first time in a long time i have been able to establish meaning, meaningful conversation and thought. as time became meaningless, contemplation of the self, my way of thinking and living, and just the path i want to carve for my future is all that could fill my head. sometimes it just takes stepping back and and evaluating almost everything from a new angle to find out where you think you are going or at least want to go. it was accepting isolation and association, tight friendship and independence and most of all an appreciation for honesty. letting go can describe so many things right now, while a craving to explore can equally describe so many more. I needed that day and i am so glad it came to me rather then the other way around; i think it's the only way it could have happened so effectively. it was awesome to hold on to a moment, experience and absorb so much meaning in the warm-light and soothing mist of a ripened dawn in the woods only to realize that even forever would not be enough to understand all that i was surrounded by. the moss, the moisture, the streaming skies and the brilliant colors that swallowed me whole opened a part of myself that i sometimes know well but now starve to know consistently in all my waking life. i feel like that walk in the woods this morning was a very important collection of self and not-self......sometimes it takes melting the two concepts together to become aware of where one truly stands. i learned how to look in another person's eyes and how to search for all that is there to find without being scared or skid-dish of being so intimately connected. i watched my mind as if i took a step back. moments of disconnection and confusion were eventually settled and resolved by a rediscovery of the aesthetic nature of companionship. after it has all been done, i feel like i am ready to take more steady steps on my own accord even if they are in an entirely different direction than the path chosen by those around me whom i really admire. overall, i am thankful and refreshed, excited and humbled. i am certain that i can discover my own thrills and meaning the way i see fit for me to discover them... in other words i dont feel reliant on temporary forms of relief to mimic feelings of worth and sense of direction. i am ready to accept and live in a moment while always being attached to the search to find more.

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-02-19T00:33:00

2006-02-19T05:54:54Z

what a strange night so far. the kind of night that reminds you how much you and everyone else around you has changed. the conversations, old letters, thoughts, and simple observations really helped to surface this mood. those that would be considered the best of friends two years ago now only equate to sadness and dejection or worry or even worse in my mind. sure, the bonds are unbreakable... but sometimes i wish they weren't. what does that mean? i liked hearing will and sam's conversation on the way home. there words, in part, inspired a drive home of self-reflection. on the contrary, the conversation at dinner made me want to vommit later on at the thought of some of the places and people i have been, but i didnt because i still feel like there is a part of me that i know and trust. i realized that now more than ever i feel closer to that person, but i still have a ways to go before i am him. for me, this is growing up.

i put in my two week notice at starbucks, it feels really weird there.

yesterday was more like a dream and less like this feeling and thus better.
i saw a sun and hair and it was as golden as the field i stood in.

catch me before i crawl all the way home

2006-01-21T16:05:08Z

i got into unc
what does this mean?
its the end of waiting
in that comfortable net
of uncertainty
it means i've met a long awaited end
only to realize its true form is complete beginning
scared, nervous but we all are.
my mom's advice in my ear
tells of past mistakes
but isn't that part of the definition of life without limit?
to be youthful
is to be free of restraint
and to be not afraid of the fall.
where am i right now?
why do i feel like a clock
in a rhythmic countdown?
only months left
we need a killer time,
nights of the thickest volume and brightest lights
so the sound may ring in my ears
for years to come
with incandescence whenever i should close my eyes.

and im soooo fucking glad i got to see saves the day, right todd? everyone needs to come when they come back, it would mean a lot more than just a good show.

ascreamingcamel @ 2006-01-11T18:48:00

2006-01-11T23:53:00Z

i really love exploring beautiful, beautiful mountains of mystery...im walking on wires on the ground.

the world that's flying by is slick and smooth, big waves of light.

2006-01-08T05:11:40Z

what a weekend so far. i mean, its just great to see people and actually enjoy my time more than i could ever imagine. small groups are the way to go, so much more intimate which makes it a lot more comfortable for me. friday was awesome, got to have a really good conversation with todd which was not only very fun but also refreshing. that is to say, it was long overdue. finding a new friend in sheina has been incredible. hang outs over the last two days have been unreal and the conversations, all of them, have actually helped me settle my mind and figure a few things out. i mean there is no way to tell what will happen as i grow up, i just know for a fact i have to do what i love... and that is observing the world and making music which is sort of branched off the first idea. i have no aspiration to aquire wealth or power, not even really recognition so much anymore... a mark upon a few close people, i have realized now, is certainly enough to fulfill me. its all i ask of myself and i am really confident in my ability to be real with myself. after seeing what limited experiences i have now, there is no way i could ever turn my back on my dreams. i am really stoked for practice tomorrow and getting to see other friends that i dont normally get to see. i am not really stoked for work. work sucks.

sometimes just waking is surreal

2006-01-03T21:40:53Z

(The Doors of Perception & Heaven and Hell + The Teachings of the Buddha)in my possesion= maximum stokage

we're not lost, we're just apart

2005-12-29T16:40:16Z

unholy harbinger, by wiccan sent! does toru okada's new song shred like flesh fed fangs. i love it as ishmael loves the ocean blue.

ascreamingcamel @ 2005-12-09T00:59:00

2005-12-09T06:02:04Z

SHOW: december 27th @ the shogun hideout (www.myspace.com/theshogunhideout) show starts at 730. i know this is way early to start promoting... but we need everyone who possibly can to come out to this. help with promotion from friends would be greatly appreciated!!!!

other bands playing:

boa narrow (www.myspace.com/boanarrow)
chet stedman (www.myspace.com/chetstedman)
circle take the square (www.circletakesthesquare.com)

thank you,
cameron

ascreamingcamel @ 2005-12-07T22:05:00

2005-12-08T03:07:40Z

i was tagged by bill
"list seven songs you are into right now. no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. post these instructions in your LJ along with your seven songs. then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to."

1. rosa- whiskey
2. cursive- a gentleman caller
3. toru okada- our great cities
4. the doors- the end

i tag

todd

ascreamingcamel @ 2005-12-03T18:20:00

2005-12-03T23:26:52Z

"it's a search, an opening of one door after another. And yet there's no consistent philosophy or politics. sensuousness and evil is an attractive image to us now, but think of it as a snakeskin that will be shed sometime. Our work, our performing, is a striving for a metamophosis. right now i am more interested in the dark side of life, the evil things, the dark side of the moon, the nighttime. but in our music it appears to me that we are seeking, striving, trying to break through to some cleaner, freer realm. It's like a purification ritual in an alchemical sense. first you have to have the period of disorder, chaos, returning to a primeval disaster region. Out of that you purify the elements and find a new seed of life, which transforms all life and all matter and the personality until finally, hopefully, you emerge and marry all those dualisms and opposites. then you are not talking about evil and good anymore, but something unified and pure. our music and personalities as seen in performance are still in the state of chaos and disorder which may be an incipient element of purity kind of starting. lately, when we've appeared in person, it's started to merge together"

- Jim Morrison

SKETCHFEST 3 W/ CIRCLE TAKES THE SQUARE???????

2005-11-30T05:01:41Z

hey cameron. thanks for getting in touch. it was cool
seeing all you guys at the savannah show. how was your
show? i hope all is well in the devar toi camp. we're
heading out for a super last minute short tour around
a date that we just got offered in december that we
couldn't refuse, and i know its super short notice,
but i was wondering if you could possibly scrape
something together for us on december 27th. we really
would appreciate anything...let me know your
professional diagnosis on this one when you get a
chance. thanks cameron. maximumfuckingshred, drew

yeah... fuck yeah there will be a sketchfest 3.

we know that you're dying just like us, so what the fuck?

2005-11-27T23:43:20Z

the whole idea that local bands need to be paid to play a house show is absurd!! in the last week, the situation has occurred THREE times. some girl inviting our band to play a show asked us how much we would need to get paid in order to play. what the fuck? it's very sad that the filth of the corporate music industry has started to trickle down even into the remote and local music levels. granted, i know a band needs money to exist, i know that most definitely, but to demand payment to play a house show seems ridiculous. for a touring band, a request for any sort of money available is reasonable and i guess acceptable, but for local acts... a monetary request speaks boldly of superficial desire and nothing else. what the fuck are you playing for? it's definitely not for the art or the expression of the music. sadly, i would compare the situation today to that of paid professional athletes in that many aren't even making music because it is what they love. this should be something made out of love and passion, instead it's almost like an occupation for most. you should play even if you never got paid, if not, i would hardly call you a musician. and without a doubt, you are not in it for the love of personal expression. i wouldn't describe this post as one of despair, because i do know that there are plenty of amazing bands that are pure and right in what they do; however, my fear is that these sort of bands are truly becoming obsolete due to the quickly produced and fast rising slew of semi-decent bands who really have nothing new to say at all. that is all.

cameron

ascreamingcamel @ 2005-11-26T18:57:00

2005-11-26T23:58:10Z

I just finished choke. with each book read, it seems like i am unlocking more about myself. anyone agree? back to the books!

ascreamingcamel @ 2005-11-25T19:16:00

2005-11-26T00:16:18Z